Right now I have to continue to wait for more answers. I had my PET scan on Friday and my MRI on Monday. My friend Kim took me to my MRI appointment and we had the best six hours together with the exception of 45 minutes of it being inside a tiny tube (just me, not her). We decided we needed some shopping and happy hour therapy after the scan, and we celebrated life well--scans, cancer, and all....
But Tuesday I had my appointment with my oncologist and I was hoping for some concrete answers and some news that the scans were clear.....but that didn't happen.
I am not going to divulge too many details yet, because frankly I don't know them all, nor does the doctor. But from the initial reports from the Pet scan, it looks like the cancer has spread. They will have to look in detail at the MRI to see the extent of it....but as I have already learned, everything is a waiting process. They are getting the MRI scans and then my case will be sent to a "Tumor Board" at UCSD--a two hour meeting with the best of the best--the colon surgeon, the liver surgeon, the radiologist, the oncologist, the nurses.....everyone. They will look at all my reports and images and come up with a plan of attack--and I say attack because this looks like it is going to be more of a battle than we thought.
The Tumor Board is scheduled for next Tuesday (April 2) and then I will meet with them right after at 3:00 and find out the real results. So we have a LOT to pray about. My biggest prayer right now is that I would not be anxious or fearful and that I would trust in the Lord completely. Please please please pray for Greg and my boys.
I have an amazing friend Jon--a doctor, who is one of my lifelong friends from college (and that is a whole other blog post--oh the days at UCSB!). He lives in Georgia, but he is on the list of doctors who gets my reports and we talk pretty much every day. He explains any questions that I still might have and tells me lots of jokes and college days memories to make me laugh. He and his family are a huge blessing in my life--and he is giving me so many assurances and hope.
But.....I still have to wait. And let me tell you, waiting SUCKS. There--I said it--just trying to be real and transparent (read my earlier posts).....but our timing is not God's timing, and the answers we want are often not the answers God gives us (He still has a plan and a purpose though). I know that many of you want to know what is going on and want more answers, but please join me in waiting.....I can't explain everything to everyone....and I should have a lot more information by next week. So we wait....expectantly, and we pray....for miracles and healing.
"Wait patiently for the Lord...be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27: 14
(Read all of Psalm 27--it is one of my favorites!)
"We wait in hope for the Lord, he is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice for we trust his holy name."
I am blessed--by the incredible outpouring of support from friends near and far. We have more waiting to do, but let's wait expectantly, and pray boldly. Live each day with full joy-- don't wait for that part. Carpe Diem!
Blessings my friends.